I wrote this blog last night, Tuesday April 27. For some reason I didn't feel I should post it last night...
God is a good God. I've heard it over and over and everytime I've replied either "Yes He is" or "All the time" sometimes a simple "Amen". But each time I've believed it.
So what does He have to do with facebook...
Well, I am a stay at home mom, some days it seems that I am not at home as much as I my title implies I should be. But, you know I do what I've got to do.... okay I really do what I like to do, which I believe is what I am suppose to be doing at the time. Don't get me wrong there are those days that I am doing things that I don't like or want to do, but I do them and when I do them with a glad heart I always enjoy myself.
I honestly believe God is touching my life by using facebook. No I am not talking about the bounty of Farmville.... I am talking about the doors that have opened to people who I haven't talked to in too long, or some doors to people I remember and I knew but I know them on a new level, and have a new relationship with them now because of facebook.
Seriously, there is a one person that was in high school with me. I knew her, but never really knew her. Now, I know her, I know her heart, her concerns, what she loves... and it is such a blessing.
Then there is a person who lives far away, who I honestly have always cared about but didn't know very well.... how do I care about them but not know them? We are related...okay--- I have gotten to know this person and have laughed so much; if you do not know me, I LOVE to laugh... I love to make you laugh, laughter is so energizing...it brings such a sense of revival within me.
Today, I get a message from someone I have wondered about for years (from my high school years)...' do you remember?' they ask, why of course I remember. . . and what a skip in my step it brought. I am anxious to get to know them again...
This doesn't even touch on those who are believers, and hear from the Lord and then post what they feel God is telling/teaching them.... how amazing is that? To be able to hear and see what God is showing others all around the world, well okay it's country for now. But, I see God taking these people out into the world...
I get to talk to my family whether near or far. New friends, dear friends, past friends, they all become present friends. And I do NOT take any of them lightly... I do NOT throw the word "friend" around without merit or weight. Sure, I have my "go to" friends the ones I can email pictures of shoes to when I need help deciding... Or call to cry with, but then they are the same friend I will call and rejoice with... I have friends who I can share and learn things about our Lord; I have others that I can share my Lord with. (This is me, the person who was so lonely... missing that 'friend' who got me, and even if she didn't get me at the moment she had my back....)
I look at my life, and see a fields of beautiful flowers, blowing gently in the wind... I stand and feel the wind blow through my hair, I close my eyes and smell the beauty of it all... in wonderment of all that God has blessed me with. And best of all, I see with my spirit what more God has for me... it's there and as long as I keep my eyes on Him; FIXED on Him, there is no limit to what He has for me...
Okay.... remember what I said? "There is no limit for what He has for me..." Wow what a declaration...and how did He prove that to me today, Wednesday April 28 at 11 pm. A must read is my blog "Debbie!?! (From Across the Street)
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Debbie!?! (From Across the Street)
Words can not begin to explain what I am feeling tonight.
In a split second your life can change or you can feel like it has changed.
I feel that I have lost alot in my life.... alot of love has been taken from me but tonight I am reminded that when something is taken from you (stolen) God will return it to you and when God does something for you He gives you more than was taken.
I think of my Dad everyday, somedays it brings a smile, others saddness. I miss him, I miss that person, I miss what I had with him and I miss what I didn't get to have with him. I ache when I look at my children and I think of what he has missed... my heartbreaks for him.
And while I know people who have lost loved ones... (parents who lost children, siblings who lost brothers and sisters) no one person truly knows how you feel or how much it hurts. My own brother doesn't share the loss or grief that I do. My Mom does but only in the past few years has she shown that to me.
Of course the Lord knows... He feels it but there is one other person on this earth who I KNOW, KNOWS what I feel and the bond that we share has kept her alive in my heart since the beginning of our relationship.
Little did we know that we would have so much in common... our parents knew each other from their youth, our bedroom windows faced each other, man, we even shared the same name....our birthdays were within weeks of each other... did we know at such a young age that we were destined to meet? You know what? Yes, I think we did... maybe not to the degree we do now but we knew. I don't think our parents knew. [Or they wouldn't have told the school to not let us be in the same kindergarten class--broke my heart--I was so scared to not be in class with Debbie. (Just kidding Moms)... it was probably best or we wouldn't have learned a thing.]
But that fateful year 1973 we became so much more than childhood friends... and God knew in 1965 or before that we would need each other.
You see Debbie was the friend who lost her mom the summer of 73, it was Debbie's window I looked at and I wept for my friend who lost her Mommy....I remember lifting my shade and pulling it back down. Thinking it just didn't seem fair, didn't seem real, how could it be.
Then 2 months later Debbie had to see me through my most difficult time when she heard the word that my Daddy died.... how do you wrap your mind around that at 8 yrs old? You see God knew we would need each other, we being children could get each other through it.
A few years later her dad remarried, I tried to be happy for her, I think I seemed happy for her (sorry Debbie if I didn't fake it well enough). But, I was sad because that also meant they would be moving on with a new part of their life and there just may not be room for us.
Remember, not only did Debbie and I lose a parent, our other parent lost their loves, our siblings who were younger lost a parent... we were tied together and after losing someone the last thing I wanted to do was lose someone else.
I am guessing here but, I can imagine that we spent time together and felt an ease because we didn't have to talk about our pain, we already knew what the other was going through.
Time went by and we spent time together when we could. Eventually, the time was less and then we lost touch.
Not a week goes by that I didn't think of Debbie (& Mindy). Wondering where she was, wondering if we saw each other again if there would be an awkwardness; would I be the only one who still cared?
I have been making declarations.... saying a prayer with my family.
I have been believing God for things:
I walk in Your timing.
My emotions are sound and stable.
I speak peace into my life, relationships...
Everything that is misaligned I command to come into divine alignment in my life.
I command everything to be released in Jesus' name.
I am living my most blessed and best days now.
Yesterday, I get a message from a friend that I knew back in high school. I thought, wow how great is this! Lovin' this facebook. I get to talk to my cousin who makes me laugh everytime we talk, now this friend 'finds' me. I am blessed, thank you God.
Today, after spending the day busy... I hadn't had a chance to get on my laptop so I pick up my phone to check my emails...
I saw a name... I looked again, and I instantly began to cry. My poor kids and husband didn't know what was going on.
They'd heard the story, of my best friend, Debbie... so when I got the words out Debbie found me, she's on facebook my heart began to beat so hard, my hands were shaking I couldn't believe it... I couldn't think clearly. My dear, cherished friend who had become almost like a dream to me because I only saw her in my mind and wasn't sure if I'd ever see her face to face again. And here she was... we 'talked' as you do on facebook. While we did a piece of my heart was healed, a part was put back with her coming back into my life. A love was given back to me... stronger than ever, deeper than I ever imagined, a bond was broken because of time and space and it was restored.
You may not understand how 2 little girls could hurt so much and miss each other so much for so many years, but Debbie and I understand and that's what makes us love each other so much....
Don't tell me God doesn't hear our cries... don't tell me there aren't miracles and never wonder how or who He will use-Thank you God, thank you so much for this amazing gift you have given back to me...
In a split second your life can change or you can feel like it has changed.
I feel that I have lost alot in my life.... alot of love has been taken from me but tonight I am reminded that when something is taken from you (stolen) God will return it to you and when God does something for you He gives you more than was taken.
I think of my Dad everyday, somedays it brings a smile, others saddness. I miss him, I miss that person, I miss what I had with him and I miss what I didn't get to have with him. I ache when I look at my children and I think of what he has missed... my heartbreaks for him.
And while I know people who have lost loved ones... (parents who lost children, siblings who lost brothers and sisters) no one person truly knows how you feel or how much it hurts. My own brother doesn't share the loss or grief that I do. My Mom does but only in the past few years has she shown that to me.
Of course the Lord knows... He feels it but there is one other person on this earth who I KNOW, KNOWS what I feel and the bond that we share has kept her alive in my heart since the beginning of our relationship.
Little did we know that we would have so much in common... our parents knew each other from their youth, our bedroom windows faced each other, man, we even shared the same name....our birthdays were within weeks of each other... did we know at such a young age that we were destined to meet? You know what? Yes, I think we did... maybe not to the degree we do now but we knew. I don't think our parents knew. [Or they wouldn't have told the school to not let us be in the same kindergarten class--broke my heart--I was so scared to not be in class with Debbie. (Just kidding Moms)... it was probably best or we wouldn't have learned a thing.]
But that fateful year 1973 we became so much more than childhood friends... and God knew in 1965 or before that we would need each other.
You see Debbie was the friend who lost her mom the summer of 73, it was Debbie's window I looked at and I wept for my friend who lost her Mommy....I remember lifting my shade and pulling it back down. Thinking it just didn't seem fair, didn't seem real, how could it be.
Then 2 months later Debbie had to see me through my most difficult time when she heard the word that my Daddy died.... how do you wrap your mind around that at 8 yrs old? You see God knew we would need each other, we being children could get each other through it.
A few years later her dad remarried, I tried to be happy for her, I think I seemed happy for her (sorry Debbie if I didn't fake it well enough). But, I was sad because that also meant they would be moving on with a new part of their life and there just may not be room for us.
Remember, not only did Debbie and I lose a parent, our other parent lost their loves, our siblings who were younger lost a parent... we were tied together and after losing someone the last thing I wanted to do was lose someone else.
I am guessing here but, I can imagine that we spent time together and felt an ease because we didn't have to talk about our pain, we already knew what the other was going through.
Time went by and we spent time together when we could. Eventually, the time was less and then we lost touch.
Not a week goes by that I didn't think of Debbie (& Mindy). Wondering where she was, wondering if we saw each other again if there would be an awkwardness; would I be the only one who still cared?
I have been making declarations.... saying a prayer with my family.
I have been believing God for things:
I walk in Your timing.
My emotions are sound and stable.
I speak peace into my life, relationships...
Everything that is misaligned I command to come into divine alignment in my life.
I command everything to be released in Jesus' name.
I am living my most blessed and best days now.
Yesterday, I get a message from a friend that I knew back in high school. I thought, wow how great is this! Lovin' this facebook. I get to talk to my cousin who makes me laugh everytime we talk, now this friend 'finds' me. I am blessed, thank you God.
Today, after spending the day busy... I hadn't had a chance to get on my laptop so I pick up my phone to check my emails...
I saw a name... I looked again, and I instantly began to cry. My poor kids and husband didn't know what was going on.
They'd heard the story, of my best friend, Debbie... so when I got the words out Debbie found me, she's on facebook my heart began to beat so hard, my hands were shaking I couldn't believe it... I couldn't think clearly. My dear, cherished friend who had become almost like a dream to me because I only saw her in my mind and wasn't sure if I'd ever see her face to face again. And here she was... we 'talked' as you do on facebook. While we did a piece of my heart was healed, a part was put back with her coming back into my life. A love was given back to me... stronger than ever, deeper than I ever imagined, a bond was broken because of time and space and it was restored.
You may not understand how 2 little girls could hurt so much and miss each other so much for so many years, but Debbie and I understand and that's what makes us love each other so much....
Don't tell me God doesn't hear our cries... don't tell me there aren't miracles and never wonder how or who He will use-Thank you God, thank you so much for this amazing gift you have given back to me...
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Seeds
I heard Wendy Treat speak recently--- write down your seed thoughts she said... don't dismiss those little thoughts that come into your mind... acknowledge them. Don't wait because if we wait, then later we may not remember them...
Oh how true is that? How many times do things come into my head and I think oh I won't forget that and then when I have time to sit down and write it down I forget it...
So, I've been trying to remember to do just that. When I feel something come to my mind I try to write it down, make note of it somewhere. That reminds me, get a bigger purse so I can keep my small notebook in my purse to write things down...okay back on track : - ).
As I hear things or say them... if I forget them does that mean it wasn't God.
I don't believe so.
One time I remember feeling this overwhelming desire to write a letter to a woman I respected very much. I wrote what I was feeling or hearing, to this day I only recall parts of it. I mailed the letter, sometime later she saw me and told me that she received it and it was something she'd been praying about.
Sometimes the seeds are thoughts of something bigger that God may have for someone else, but wants to deliver it through us. Sometimes they are seeds that take longer to grow and may not even make sense or apply to our lives until a later time or situation.
If I am seeking God, and if I am reading the word more and studying it more it seems to only make sense that God is going to drop more seeds in my mind because it has become a ready plowed land... ironically the seed will grow better with fertilizer... of course I don't mean literal manure, or do I?
When a farmer/gardener does fertilize their crops or seeds what grows? Manure? No, the seed and it grows stronger, bigger and the flower is vibrant and beautiful. I am not saying that we should allow ourselves to go places that we know we shouldn't be, or participate in 'crap' that we know we shouldn't. What I am saying is that when the seed is planted and it has fertilizer thrown on it; it has a better chance of growing stronger.... bigger.... brighter.
How much clearer can we see a picture when it is contrasted?
(You know like when someone prints a photo in black and white but highlights part of it in color, you are automatically looking at the color.)
How much sweeter is the smell of something after you smell the stench of something bad?
So, the next time you feel you are surrounded by the fertilizer of life.... possibly God is using that situation to help the seed of something to grow.... keep your Eyes on Jesus.
Oh how true is that? How many times do things come into my head and I think oh I won't forget that and then when I have time to sit down and write it down I forget it...
So, I've been trying to remember to do just that. When I feel something come to my mind I try to write it down, make note of it somewhere. That reminds me, get a bigger purse so I can keep my small notebook in my purse to write things down...okay back on track : - ).
As I hear things or say them... if I forget them does that mean it wasn't God.
I don't believe so.
One time I remember feeling this overwhelming desire to write a letter to a woman I respected very much. I wrote what I was feeling or hearing, to this day I only recall parts of it. I mailed the letter, sometime later she saw me and told me that she received it and it was something she'd been praying about.
Sometimes the seeds are thoughts of something bigger that God may have for someone else, but wants to deliver it through us. Sometimes they are seeds that take longer to grow and may not even make sense or apply to our lives until a later time or situation.
If I am seeking God, and if I am reading the word more and studying it more it seems to only make sense that God is going to drop more seeds in my mind because it has become a ready plowed land... ironically the seed will grow better with fertilizer... of course I don't mean literal manure, or do I?
When a farmer/gardener does fertilize their crops or seeds what grows? Manure? No, the seed and it grows stronger, bigger and the flower is vibrant and beautiful. I am not saying that we should allow ourselves to go places that we know we shouldn't be, or participate in 'crap' that we know we shouldn't. What I am saying is that when the seed is planted and it has fertilizer thrown on it; it has a better chance of growing stronger.... bigger.... brighter.
How much clearer can we see a picture when it is contrasted?
(You know like when someone prints a photo in black and white but highlights part of it in color, you are automatically looking at the color.)
How much sweeter is the smell of something after you smell the stench of something bad?
So, the next time you feel you are surrounded by the fertilizer of life.... possibly God is using that situation to help the seed of something to grow.... keep your Eyes on Jesus.
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