Debbie!?! (From Across the Street)

Words can not begin to explain what I am feeling tonight.

In a split second your life can change or you can feel like it has changed.
I feel that I have lost alot in my life.... alot of love has been taken from me but tonight I am reminded that when something is taken from you (stolen) God will return it to you and when God does something for you He gives you more than was taken.




I think of my Dad everyday, somedays it brings a smile, others saddness. I miss him, I miss that person, I miss what I had with him and I miss what I didn't get to have with him. I ache when I look at my children and I think of what he has missed... my heartbreaks for him.


And while I know people who have lost loved ones... (parents who lost children, siblings who lost brothers and sisters) no one person truly knows how you feel or how much it hurts. My own brother doesn't share the loss or grief that I do. My Mom does but only in the past few years has she shown that to me.


Of course the Lord knows... He feels it but there is one other person on this earth who I KNOW, KNOWS what I feel and the bond that we share has kept her alive in my heart since the beginning of our relationship.


Little did we know that we would have so much in common... our parents knew each other from their youth, our bedroom windows faced each other, man, we even shared the same name....our birthdays were within weeks of each other... did we know at such a young age that we were destined to meet? You know what? Yes, I think we did... maybe not to the degree we do now but we knew. I don't think our parents knew. [Or they wouldn't have told the school to not let us be in the same kindergarten class--broke my heart--I was so scared to not be in class with Debbie. (Just kidding Moms)... it was probably best or we wouldn't have learned a thing.]


But that fateful year 1973 we became so much more than childhood friends... and God knew in 1965 or before that we would need each other.


You see Debbie was the friend who lost her mom the summer of 73, it was Debbie's window I looked at and I wept for my friend who lost her Mommy....I remember lifting my shade and pulling it back down. Thinking it just didn't seem fair, didn't seem real, how could it be.
Then 2 months later Debbie had to see me through my most difficult time when she heard the word that my Daddy died.... how do you wrap your mind around that at 8 yrs old? You see God knew we would need each other, we being children could get each other through it.
A few years later her dad remarried, I tried to be happy for her, I think I seemed happy for her (sorry Debbie if I didn't fake it well enough). But, I was sad because that also meant they would be moving on with a new part of their life and there just may not be room for us.


Remember, not only did Debbie and I lose a parent, our other parent lost their loves, our siblings who were younger lost a parent... we were tied together and after losing someone the last thing I wanted to do was lose someone else.
I am guessing here but, I can imagine that we spent time together and felt an ease because we didn't have to talk about our pain, we already knew what the other was going through.


Time went by and we spent time together when we could. Eventually, the time was less and then we lost touch.
Not a week goes by that I didn't think of Debbie (& Mindy). Wondering where she was, wondering if we saw each other again if there would be an awkwardness; would I be the only one who still cared?


I have been making declarations.... saying a prayer with my family.
I have been believing God for things:
I walk in Your timing.
My emotions are sound and stable.
I speak peace into my life, relationships...
Everything that is misaligned I command to come into divine alignment in my life.
I command everything to be released in Jesus' name.
I am living my most blessed and best days now.


Yesterday, I get a message from a friend that I knew back in high school. I thought, wow how great is this! Lovin' this facebook. I get to talk to my cousin who makes me laugh everytime we talk, now this friend 'finds' me. I am blessed, thank you God.


Today, after spending the day busy... I hadn't had a chance to get on my laptop so I pick up my phone to check my emails...


I saw a name... I looked again, and I instantly began to cry. My poor kids and husband didn't know what was going on.
They'd heard the story, of my best friend, Debbie... so when I got the words out Debbie found me, she's on facebook my heart began to beat so hard, my hands were shaking I couldn't believe it... I couldn't think clearly. My dear, cherished friend who had become almost like a dream to me because I only saw her in my mind and wasn't sure if I'd ever see her face to face again. And here she was... we 'talked' as you do on facebook. While we did a piece of my heart was healed, a part was put back with her coming back into my life. A love was given back to me... stronger than ever, deeper than I ever imagined, a bond was broken because of time and space and it was restored.


You may not understand how 2 little girls could hurt so much and miss each other so much for so many years, but Debbie and I understand and that's what makes us love each other so much....


Don't tell me God doesn't hear our cries... don't tell me there aren't miracles and never wonder how or who He will use-Thank you God, thank you so much for this amazing gift you have given back to me...