Through the fire

Let me begin by saying that this is not me telling you things for you to feel bad for me...
This is all about me telling you how great my life is...
After loss, pain, hurt, disappointment and through the loss, pain, hurt, disappointment I find myself walking in joy, happiness and peace. 
I walk in a peace that I can not explain to you, that while there are days that I have tears that come for the loss of my dad, my aunt, my friend or even my one child I never held or saw, I still walk in peace.  The struggles in my family, my marriage, the struggles within myself over self confidence, self assurance.  I walk in peace.
I have been reminded over and over of how Daniel was in the lions den or the 3 men walked through the firey furnace how they faced it, walked through it and came out untouched.  I imagine they felt the heat, and they prayed all the way through... but they came out of it.
I miss my loved ones, I wonder what may have been or why they  had to be taken so early in my life and their lives.  But, I know that God wrapped His arms around them, He took care of them and surrounded them with love as they entered into His Glory. 
And despite it all I have learned to trust in Him even more... lean on Him even more.  I am stronger because I am leaning on HIm even more, I am closer to Him because of it all.  And that is why I am walking in peace.