Okay I will admit it and if you know me it's not a surprise, I am NOT a morning person. Never have been... it doesn't bother me much, when I have to be somewhere I get up and I am there, presentable... on a good day lookin' good. Most times I am on time especially if I don't have to get out the door with Coulson.
He's like the kids on Family Circle.... gets distracted easily and before you know it I am waiting for him at the door, he's not much of a morning person either, unless he stays with Mema (my mom) then he's up early, sitting around watching the news.... poor little guy had an overload of natural disasters last week after staying with her.
Where was I? Oh yeah getting distracted, haha!
So, when I wake up to the alarm on my iPhone because my alarm clock just doesn't always want to work....what is the first thing I do [?]... blink to clear out the dryness in my eyes, pick up the phone turn off the alarm and see that I have (typically) 60 something emails waiting for me. So, I glance through them and read the ones from PTA, or from friends or family I am waiting to hear from....
And this is where it all begins----you ready?
Is it too much to ask that IF you have something to accuse me of no matter how clever you think you are being with your indirectness and you do not have the nerve to dial my number then at the very LEAST wait until after 9 am and I've had a chance to get my children off to school with a happy mom in their presence not an irriated, and bit irrational ticked off woman!
When someone wrongly accuses or offends me especially when I know beyond a shadow of doubt that I am not guilty of what they are saying, I can literally feel my blood begin to get warm....my heart pounds hard....I can not concentrate on what needs to be done, my mind becomes boggled down with the lack of class or coothe that the person has.
I guess even in the "loud" home I was raised in my mom never was confrontational or accused me of things [until I was an adult and guess what she was right about what I was doing..]
So, despite my moms sweet, quiet dispostion (hee,hee) I am a peace-maker, I don't like people to not like me and quite honestly would never intentionally do something to hurt someones feelings, I would go out of my way to make sure I don't say something in a way that would hurt them. On the other hand I wear my heart on my sleeve and can really get my feelings hurt; I will at times say 'oh it was offensive' but it wasn't even that mature... it truly, flat out just hurt my feelings.
I attempted to take a deep breathe to begin what could be a day that made me sick, or should I say sicker than I already felt... that's another symptom of my offendedness (Debisms as my husband calls it) feeling sick to my stomach of course I have to be pretty upset to get that far.... very few situations/people have taken me that far.
I walked out the door, and went to take the kids to school. First chance I got I took out my bible and begin reading.....
There are so many times in my life that I have just let my bible open up and began reading where it fell; I have always felt it was 'divine' and that God was showing me what to read or study.... This time I KNOW it was God.
My bible opened to Proverbs 12:15 The way of a fool seems right to him, but a wise man listens to advice.... this fit perfectly what was going on at the moment... I felt vindicated by the Lord I liked so much what I read that I read on you know the feeling, oh yeah I was right they were SOOOO wrong....
Proverbs 12:16....(ouch a slap in the face) A fool shows his annoyance but a prudent man overlooks an insult. God truly has a sense of humor and I know when to take advice and correction and accepted that and repented and quite honestly laughed at myself for being 'called out' by my Heavenly Father.
From that point on I wasn't offended by what was said (or should I say typed), because I heard the advice of the Lord. --you know back to verse 15.... a wise man listens to advice, and the advice was overlooking an insult--
I went on to read Proverbs, one of my favorite books of the bible, it is so full of lessons and bits of wisdom that truly can be applied to life even if you aren't a believer you could apply these things to your life and make the world a better place---
Vs. 18, Reckless words pierce like a sword but the tongue of the wise brings healing.....Oh more than ever I want to be wise.... listening, healing, overlooking insults can you imagine how peaceful your life (ok MY life) would be if I didn't allow things to insult me, {deep sigh followed by an inward peace}.
Proverbs 13:5, The righteous hate what is false, but the wicked bring shame AND disgrace.
Vs. 10, Pride ony breeds quarrels but wisdom is found in those who take advice.
Vs. 13, He who scorns instruction will pay for it, but he who respects a command is rewarded.
Vs. 18, He who ignores discipline comes to poverty & shame but whoever heeds correction is honored.
Proverbs 2:7, He holds victory instore for the upright, he is a shielf to those whose walk is blameless.
Ecclesiates 8:1, Who is like a wise man? Who knows the explanation of things? Wisdom brightens a mans face and changes its hard appearance.
So, I went on and my day was full of peace and joy; I felt support from friends near and far, I found a deep appreciation for the people (as far away as Germany and as close as Broken Arrow) that God has chosen to put my intersect my path with.... you see if I had not chosen to walk with the Lord, He would not have put YOU in my life no matter who you are, no matter if you believe like I do... God did put you in my life and I thank HIM for that. I learned so much that day when someone (thing) tried to start my day out with a bad email.... God truly turns things around for good to those who love Him!!!
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